Boring day againnn..
Here I am writing this dear old blog coz i've practically got nothin to do. So sad isn't it? But hey still, life goes on.. Today i don't do anything except sleep, chat, browsing for a while and cooking meatball soup with my bro for our lunch and dinner. Which taste ok. Eventho its not got as the abang2 bakso version. It's easy to make, just bought raw beef meatball (bakso in indo) from your local chinese shop and then boil for a while, change the water and put broth cube in and not forget the meatball. And if u'd like to, put some veggies there. Let it boil for a minute, and then voila.. You can eat it straight away, with rice or noodle or vermicelli or anything. You can served it with sweet soya sauce, sambal, and fried shallot. it taste good. In fact beef meatball soup is one of my fave food.
Okay let's move on from bakso. Today i feel depressed. Feel like wanna cry again and again. I don't know why. Maybe it's beacause I miss my mom n my family. Or miss my friend in Indo or at last I realize that my brain is impaired and it's not likely to be the same as usual. Or the fact that I lost one of my best friend. Well I dunno whether she regards me as her best friend, but I do. Well yeah.. receive text from Tuink, she encourage me to be brave, she said that she had it worse than I do. She got dengue fever, lost her Dad, flood come into her house, What else can be worse than that. I know that I have to thankfull for what I've become now, but I still think that I'm nothin. Stupid old Lydia dat got nothin. Got no friends besides her. I need my mom. She's where I can stand with when I lost my confidence. I wonder when I'll be happy. Not a pretend to be happy but really2 happy. I miss my time just walking thru Perth with no destination, just wak our way. Or going to the beach at nite in winter with the nepsonk. That won't be happened again i suppose. Really2 won't happened. Oh well.. Just hoping that I'll have new and nice friends that understand you and not leaving you for one or two things. God plz help...